I know....... don't say it.... I disappear for what seems like ages on Xanga and then I'm randomly back one day. BUT I think I'm at a point where I can write in this thing and NOT make people mad with everything that I say. And if I do, I'm done apologizing for it. Soo..... I'm back. At least for awhile... maybe... maybe not....

Life's good. God's amazing. Darin's great. Life is just.......... how it should be, right now. I wish Darin was closer to me (geographically) but our relationship has actually grown stronger being away from each other. We have to depend on each other a lot more and there's not one ounce of taking each other for granted. I love it! I get to see him for the first time since school started in 10 days and I am so excited!!! It's one of those things where I want to talk about it a lot but I won't..... cuz I know it bothers people.

Well, senior year as proven to be as different as all the other years have been. I'm at the stage where I'm ready for the next phase of my life. Ready to move on..... Ready for something new. I love OVU, don't get me wrong. But for as much good has happened here, a lot of hurt as happened also. And I'm definitely ready to leave those memories behind. Apartment life is................different. Either all of my other roommates are here, and I'm gone. Or I'm here and everyone else is gone. But that's okay, gives me a chance to get stuff done. I just feel sort of "left out" sometimes. Not that anyone does it on purpose.... it's just the way things work. In general, I spend a lot of time alone this year. I don't know if that's good or bad.

Welp, I need to get sleep....

*~*MaybeI'llBeBack,MaybeNot*~*
AnnaBeth

Don't get used to this... I just wanted to.

2nd semester has started. CRAZY! I'm excited though. I'm almost done with school and I plan on finishing strong.

Only a month until baseball season starts!!!!

I'm updating again... I know I know... twice in a week. That hasn't happened for quite some time. But listen, (or read) I'm in work study and have nothing to do so... that lead me to xanga.

I don't have much to write about honestly. Let's see... I guess I'll tell my plans for the weekend since my creativeness is apparently gone for the moment.

I am super pumped about this weekend actually. On Friday, I only have one class and then I'm going to observe for 3 hours. This includes eating lunch with 17 first graders. I'm pretty excited about it. I wanted to seem cooler than I really am, so I bought a Lunchables at Wal-Mart yesterday and I plan on enjoying it... while looking cool. Friday night I think Darin and I are going to try to go to his home football game. It's their homecoming. (He thinks.) So we're gonna try to go to it. Maybe that means I'll get to see some of his friends from high school... I think it will make me miss Amanda... and possibly marching band. (I am a band geek and proud of it so shut your face.)

On Saturday Darin will be at the WVU game so I will get to sleep in and hopefully catch up on A LOT of homework while he's gone. When he gets back Rachel, Brad, Ashley, Sam (maybe), Darin and I are all going to watch Steel Magnolias. I don't think I've ever seen it... and Rachel insisted that I should. So... I'm going to. I'm pretty excited about it. I'm not even gonna lie to you.

And Sunday will be church. Yay!

Next weekend???........COLUMBUS........AGAIN!!!! And this time, my mom's gonna be there. So take that.

Random update just to keep everyone informed:

Life is good right now. I'm finding myself more content than ever with my life lately. God is doing awesome things in my life and I can really see my future starting to come together. It's so awesome!! Hurtful situations in my life have been solved, for the most part. And if they aren't completely solved, oh well. I'm still perfectly content. I've grown a lot and I realize that I am a completely different person. COMPLETELY. Like, I actually speak my mind and stuff. Weird. And I think it freaks people out.... but..... I don't care.

My relationship with Darin is better and stronger than ever. You know when people say that they don't feel complete without someone? Yep, that's me. When he's not around, I have this odd feeling that I'm out of place or something but the second he comes around, everything's okay. I love him.

School's good. I'm busy.... too busy to breathe most days but that's okay. I love everything I am doing. It's hard though because most people don't understand how busy I really am. This past week I have gotten no free time until 10:30 at night and by then I have homework up to my chin. And that is no exaggeration. It sucks but by the end of the day, I feel productive and I like it.

Well, I'm not saying anything else about my life because all that means around here is that it will eventually turn into rumors.... or me talking about someone.... or something dumb like that. So.... see ya!!

*~AnnaBeth~*

Wow... it's been over a month since I posted. Hopefully that means I'm breaking the addiction of writing in this everyday... yay!!

But I needed to today because... well, I'm mad. Very mad. I just get so frustrated with immature drama crap that happens all the time around here. I've started hanging around with a lot of new people this year and I love them all a lot but I'm definitely learning who I can trust and who I can't. I guess it's all a part of making new friends. But I guess I figured that by the time you're in college you should know what information you keep to yourself and what information is okay to share. Especially if it's not even information about yourself but about friends. I love to open up to people and tell them about me and things that are bothering me and I guess I take for granted the fact that they won't tell.... maybe it's because I don't tell... so I assume everyone else won't tell. Guess I was wrong. I just get frustrated. A lot. And I really don't need to get frustrated..... but I do.

Maybe I'll write more later......... who knows.